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February 26 – Cold and Flu

February 26, 2010

I think that we all know someone that has a cold or a flu right now, perhaps even you?  There are many reasons we get sick, but I want to address one area that could open that door. Do you ever wonder why there seems to be a “season” when we get sick? What’s happening now? “Tax season!” Did you know your being sick may depend on how you deal with those seasons in your life? Do you know that many are sick around October – December? Why? Because of all the holidays coming up. So how does this work?

The only reason we get sick is because our immune system has been depleated somewhere, so that when a virus is around us, our body picks it up. However, if you have a healthy immune system, you won’t pick up that virus… it’s as simple as that. So for holidays example. We have to face relatives, get gifts, it’s a frenzy…  We fall into fear of man… What about people? What do buy? Is it going to be accepted? Am I going to be invited to dinner party’s? Will I be rejected from Uncle Joe again? Will I have enough money for gifts? I have to travel to family, will I be able to get the time off or the money to do it? And on and on. All of these things start in our thinking…  And if we dwell on them long enough, it will break down our immune system. What are we supposed to keep our minds on? Things above… things that are lovely, true, of good report… Positive things.

Let me give some examples. Let’s say someone in your house got sick. What is the first thing you say?  I hope I don’t get sick. And you begin “fearing” getting sick. Guess what? You mights just get sick.

Fear opens the door. In the book of Job (in the Bible) he got really sick, it came from his fear for his kids. Are you fearing about your kids? STOP! You are setting yourself up to get sick.

Let’s look at tax season. We start worrying (fearing) about doing the taxes. We have to find time to do them, gather a lot of information, hope and pray we don’t owe a lot, etc.  We are in a state of fear – it doesn’t have to be overwhelming fear, just a little fear opens the door.

So stop for a minute, and if you are sick, ask yourself. What caused your immune system to be depleated? Have you had any worry, anxiety, stress? Have you been resting or working too much? Do you have a relationship problem with someone? Yep, even relationship problems break down our immune system. Because when we have a broken relationship (which actually equals to a broken heart) it opens us up for all kinds of germs. There is a scripture that says, “A Merry heart does good like a medicine but a broken spirit dries up the bones.” Do you have a merry heart? Are you happy? Are you at peace with yourself? Do you love yourself? Are you receiving God’s perfect love right now for you? All these things will strengthen your immune system. But, if you are walking around sad and depressed, confused and unloved, I bet you aren’t feeling so well most of the time.

There are several diseases, not just colds and flu’s, that come through the pathway of fear and doubt and unbelief. Other auto-immune diseases such as Candita, Crone’s disease, Lupus, Multiple Sclerosis, Diabetes, even AIDS, etc are started because of a broken heart somewhere. With AIDS, it is a virus, but if our immune system was strong, it would be able to fight it off. Also, it is a bit more complicated because there are several ways to get AIDS and depending on which way, sexually transmitted or blood transfusion, etc., will depend on how you need to confess to God. We have to also confess something to God when we get sick. I was working with a person who has AIDS and we had to deal with some unclean spirits, fornication, and other sins as well. But in the area of colds and flu’s, what do we need to repent from? Fear! Fearing whatever the situation you are in, or fearing just getting sick. It’s all fear based! Fear doesn’t produce “medicine” for your body like the scripture says, it produces sickness.

So on a preventive level, the  next time you are around sick people, don’t fear it, love them in it. And the next time a “season” comes upon you, keep your mind on God, and His provision for you, and don’t fear. Know that your Heavenly Father loves you and will work everything out for good.  The next time you are stressed, stop and take back your life and get rid of spirits of fear, frustration, anger, and performance. We do all this to ourselves you know.

So here are some simple steps to apply:

1) Take notice of what you are thinking about when something comes along. Take those thoughts captive, and stay in faith about them, cast out all fearful thoughts, and replace them with God’s thoughts about them.

2) Repent to God for allowing “fear” to enter into your thoughts, that is sin. Tell God you are sorry for entertaining fearful thoughts, and tell that “spirit of fear” to Go NOW in Jesus name.

3) Then pray for the spirit of infirmity and virus to leave. You have the authority, if you are Child of Jehovah God, to do this! We have been given power from the Holy Spirit to take authority over these things in our lives and in the lives of others. But in order to do this, you need to be a Child of the Most High God. (If you aren’t “born again” in God’s family and want to be… email me… and I’ll help you do just that.)

4) Forgive, forgive, forgive… anyone that has hurt you and caused your heart to be broken. Anyone you don’t have relationship with any more. Forgive them all. Forgive uncle Joe for not loving you. Forgive your parents for abandoning you. It seems that most of our problems come up when we have to face these people… like holidays, etc. Confess your fear to God,  and receive His love and forgiveness and THEN forgive yourself. Cause the reason people can’t forgive themselves is that they haven’t first received God’s love and forgiveness.. You have to have it in order to give it – even to yourself

5) Then be thankful. A thankful heart is a joyful heart. And remember, the “Joy of the Lord is your strength.” It strengthens’ your immune system. A merry heart does good like a medicine. Joy is medicine to your body! Follow after peace, it actually balances out your chemicals in your body, bringing your immune system to optimum efficiency!

6) Dwell on God’s love and presence. Perfect love casts out ALL fear and torment. When we dwell in his Presence, we don’t have time to feel sorry for ourselves or have ourselves on our mind, it’s all about Him. Our health will greatly improve. And, His love in you will get rid of all fear and torment – which includes diseases and viruses!

The answers are in the Word of God for us, we just have to decide today to believe them and do them.


February 24 – Generosity

February 24, 2010

I was talking with a Pastor friend of mine and he shared with me about a church that he attends that has found the secret to success. It’s, of course not really a secret, because it’s in the Word of God all along, and that is being generous.

To give generously, and to have a heart of generosity is the key to anyone’s success in business, ministry, or life in general. There are tons of scriptures that talk about giving. But it’s not just in money or stuff, it’s in you! When we actually have a generous heart, it not only impacts how we give but how we live. Let me share an example.

If you have been following along these blogs, you will see that the Lord is doing something amazing in my life. He’s changing me daily more and more into His image! I’m sure you are going through the same things. And being generous is along this pathway of freedom and peace. I know that if I’m being stingy or greedy, it doesn’t produce any peace at all! But when I freely give, what a breath of fresh air. And believe me, I’ve experienced both sides. But as I said earlier this week, God wants the best for us, and this is exactly what I’m talking about. Being generous is also being kind! Ouch…

So here’s what happened yesterday. I went to a shoe store, it’s like going to a car lot sometimes, because they run after you saying if you have any questions, please let me know. Well, duh….  They don’t have to tell me that… I know that… So I would say, “No thanks, I’m fine.” When sometimes I would like help but wouldn’t ask. Anyway, as the Lord has been showing me that “it’s not always about me” I did something a bit differently this time. When the girl asked if she could help me find something, etc., instead of my usual abrupt response, I said, “Well actually, I’m looking for a shoe like this one..” And I had one in my hand. She was so excited about helping, that she looked all over for that shoe. In the end we couldn’t find it, but I learned something here. She felt good. I helped her do that because I was kind. That is a form of generosity. Sharing the goodness that God has placed in me with another. Then the Lord said, “See, it’s not about you, it was about her!” I saw something that truly blessed me too… Because I would only think of my comfort and not being patronized or talked down to by a shop keeper. It was simply pride at it’s best.

It reminds me of people who won’t ask for directions.  This is a form of pride.  Hmmm…  Now am I touching a chord?

So I look forward to being “generous” in my attitude. Because from then, my giving will also improve because what I feel in my heart, my hands will follow, my body will follow, my feet will follow. I’ll begin to look for ways to give, money, things, and self. Just saying that brings joy to my heart. Just think what will happen when I “act” upon them!

Isn’t that what we all want? Joy and Peace? Well here’s one way.

So let me get back to my conversation with my friend. He was telling me about a church that demonstrates generosity. Here’s just one example of this. At one of their church services they had taped an envelope underneath each seat. When it was time, the Pastor said, “Now each of you have an envelope under your chair. There is money in it. But it’s not yours. You have to give it away to someone in need.” They gave away 45,000 that day! They were teaching them to give, and give what is not even theirs. Isn’t that how it is with our “stuff” and money? It’s not ours? It’s all God’s anyway? What are we doing with it? Are we truly being kind? Are we truly being generous? Are we givers? Are we lovers? All of this works together. This particular church started out 4 years ago with about 20 people, it has since grown to thousands, and is giving away more than most churches bring in. They have learned the secret…  being givers and generous in their giving. I like that. I am going to adopt that principle of giving in my personal life, just as I shared about the shoe store above.

This takes practice, because we are always on our own mind… How we can be cared for. How we can be comforted. So on purpose when we go out about our business, we have to say, “Father, let me be generous today.” And continue reminding yourself during the day. As I shared in a previous blog, I have to let go of me in order to gain more of Him. And this is how we do that. By esteeming others over our own desires and needs! Isn’t that what the Bible says? Then God will take care of you and your needs automatically…

So join with me and find a way to be generous today. Again, it doesn’t have to be money or stuff, it could just be you!

February 22 – Confusion

February 22, 2010

I have a quick little insight I think might help someone.

Have you ever wondered why you are confused at times as to what God is saying? Perhaps you don’t know God’s will for your life? I learned the reason. We get confused because we “know” what God is saying and wanting but we don’t want to do it. We want another selection. Dial a scripture or something. If the Lord says to give away what you have, then give it away. But we begin asking God, “Is this you?” “Are you sure?” We question Him constantly, that will bring only confusion. This is doubt and unbelief.

Let’s take another look. Perhaps you did do something you felt was God. Then only to find out it wasn’t. You get confused because you truly believed it was God. The enemy starts to pound on you as well saying things like, “God doesn’t love you.” “He’s not talking to you.” Things like that to get us to go down the path of unbelief. In this instance, just stop all that thinking and admit you didn’t hear clearly and believe God is going to work it all for good anyway. And guess what? He does. He’s like a GPS. He recalculates from whatever decisions you make, so that He works with your choices, for good! He doesn’t beat you up at all, He doesn’t condemn you. He loves us that much.

If you get confused, it could be the enemy yelling lies in your head. We need to stop and believe only what God says, and do what only God says to do, and then there’ll be no confusion. We all HAVE the mind of Christ, let’s allow His mind to be in us. So every time you start to doubt yourself, doubt God, or get confused, stop and take a look at what you were thinking. Was it a God thought or the enemy or yours? Simply repent for whatever that thought was, and ON PURPOSE think on the Word of Truth. This takes practice because we can easily fall into that old rut again…  So make a new path for your mind. And that road will only bring peace and stability.

February 20 – More or Less

February 20, 2010

A few days ago I wrote about “believing more.” I was so gung ho, so excited about wanting to believe more, my faith was being stirred up, I was truly looking forward to what all that entailed… well, now He’s giving it to me. But not the way I thought it would come! I thought I would just believe more. But God’s plan was something entirely different. What God showed me was that in order to believe for “more”, you have to get rid of all of the “less.”  I didn’t realize there was a “cost” to this. And that cost was “me.” God hears your prayers you know, you just have to allow Him to work them in His own timing and in His own way. Well, this morning was one of those times – ouch!

Let me preface this topic with: God is so good as He wakes me up ever day with such revelations and insights for my life to change more and more in His image. You know that’s what all this life is about. Not to acquire things. Not to be well-known. Not to make a great discovery. But to grow more in His image. To be used of Him on this planet. That is the real focus here. It takes time and practice because in order to do this, we have to get rid of some things in our heart and lives. Get rid of that “me” mentality. In order to get “more” we have to get rid of the “less.” (Or even become less). There is a scripture that says, “He that is least among you shall be the greatest among you in the Kingdom of Heaven.” What a principle!

Like you, I’m sure, you have things you are not content with. For example, most women I talk to are never really happy with their hair style. They are always looking for a new hairdresser to do what they want, only to be deeply disappointed. Or the things we have, we aren’t satisfied with, the job we have, the car we drive, the house we live in, the family we have, we have areas in our life we aren’t content with. My husband told me that when you aren’t content with yourself, then you aren’t content with anything! That is very true. And the reason we aren’t content with ourselves is that we don’t really love ourselves.

I discovered this morning that the reason for all this dis-contentment is that we are not living in the “greatest” God has for us, we are living in the “less.” That is why we don’t like ourselves much, we know there is more, but what we are doing is going afer the “wrong” more! What I mean to say is that if we want “more” of God, we have to stop living in the “less” this world has to offer. What do I mean by less? What are you doing that you know isn’t good for you? What are you consumed with that you know isn’t good for you? What is it that you are thinking that isn’t God’s thoughts for you? What are you filled with that is taking up room in you heart and mind that isn’t good for you? You know what they are, I certainly do.

So I made a list, it wasn’t long, because I have already been purged of many things in my life, but one main thing is TV. I remember last night flicking through the stations and watching TV all night long. This morning as I thought about it, I realized this was the “less” in my life. It doesn’t do a thing for me but occupy my time. There are several other things, but I’ll just focus on this as an example. This is blocking me from truly receiving God’s best for me.

We have to let go of one to get the other (whatever that is God wants for us). We can’t have both. It’s like having one foot on the beach and the other in the boat, not willing to commit to either. Boy, if that boat drifted out… ouch!!  So many of us are living in that “ouchy” place. We have to make a decision. Hopefully it’s to move forward not stay where it’s comfortable and known. God has more for us.

Do you know there is a reason we aren’t content? Because we are trying to be content with the “less.” Now I’m not talking of getting more stuff, I’m talking about getting things from God. His gifts. Peace, Joy, contentment, perhaps using your gifts in a ministry, etc. Let’s say you have a desire to start a ministry but you are involved with several other things. But daily you are drawn to a ministry, it actually nags at you, but you haven’t done it yet. In order to do it, you will have to stop some other things, then wait on God to give you that ministry. We want to keep hold of what is old while waiting for the new. Let me say that again, We want to hold on to what is old while waiting for the new. We have to let the old go, now. Toss the remote controls. Get rid of the video library. (Now I’m talking to myself here about TV.) And wait on God to put into place what His best is for me.

We cannot settle for “less” because we are created for “more.” if we are His kids, He has our highest in mind. There will be a void in us until it is filled with His “more”! If you are stuck, if you feel like you can’t go on, then get rid of some things in your life. Perhaps bitterness and unforgiveness. Perhaps resentment and regret. Perhaps an addiction. Perhaps some wrong relationships. We have some hard choices to make before God gives us more. I’ve heard once that why would God bless you with more when you aren’t able to receive the more? There is not enough room in your day with the way things are. There is not enough room in your heart when it’s filled with fear and regret and anger.

So take a moment and identify those things that you “know” are not good for you. Come clean now, don’t be afraid to admit them. Because that’s when God knows you mean business and I guarantee you that things will change. You take this first step, and God will run to meet you and help you through the rest.

There is a scripture in the Bible that says, “Less of me and more of Him.” In otherwords, let me grow smaller so you can grow bigger in my life. We need to be filled with more of Him every day so that can come true. But it hurts. Because what is really happening is that your own life, heart’s desires, sinful things you have been comfortable with, issues, etc., are being cut out so that there is room for Him to grow in your heart. That “cutting away” part is not fun but necessary if you want more of Him. So if you start to hurt emotionally as you press on, that is a good sign, because God is doing a work. Let Him! And then when you “lose your life” you will “find it.” He has so much in store for us people, no eye has see or ear heard the great things God has for us for those who love Him. (1 Corinthians 2:9)

It seems that we are giving up a lot, but we aren’t. Because God has so much more for us when we become a clean yielded vessel. Do you know that I wouldn’t be teaching, traveling, enjoying some of the awesome luxuries in life, hosting my own TV program, singing in front of thousands at a baseball game, a wonderful life with my husband, relationship with my son and his family, ministering to people and helping them find healing and peace,  if I didn’t submit somewhere to God in these areas of my life? But I cannot be completely content and satisfied with my life until I release “All of my life” to Him. It’s time for all my life to be submitted to Him now, not just parts. And if these things are indications of what is in store for me, oh my, it’s going to be awesome!   As I look back over my life, when I would let go of what I think I needed to be happy, He surprised me with “greater things.”

To be less is not meaning to feel less-than, it means quite the opposite. It’s a form of real humility. It’s a place of being invisible so that the invisible God is visible through you. We can’t be invisible (humbled) if we have ourselves and our needs on our mind all day. The Bible says that when we humble ourselves, HE WILL LIFT US UP!  We have to see things through God’s eyes and His Kingdom, not the world’s, when we do this, we will understand this principle and apply it to our lives. And our prayer will be, “I want more of You – less of me. I give you permission Father to cut away what doesn’t belong so that I have room for more of You. Even if it hurts Father, help me to allow you to do the work.” This does take a bit of faith and courage! Are you willing? Are you wanting more? Then come along with me and do something about it. Choose today for the “more” and stop settling for the “less.” Give your whole self to Him, after all, you aren’t yours anyway…  But that’s a topic for another day.

February 16- I choose to believe

February 17, 2010

I learned the secret to living a life filled with hope, and peace, and joy, it’s when we “believe.” Did you know that a person who believes cannot get depressed?  Or cannot fear? When we believe it’s our mind thinking forward. It doesn’t dwell on the past, it doesn’t think of what happened yesterday, it believes for today which activates faith for tomorrow. It’s like you get to start over every day! Isn’t that what the Bible says? “His mercies are new every morning?” “Don’t let the sun go down on your wrath?” It means that every night, get rid of those “thoughts” by forgiving all you need to forgive, making amends with those you need to reconcile with, go to bed in peace, so that your morning starts a fresh!

In the past few days I have decided to kick it up a notch and believe more than I ever have before! I am now believing that I will exercise more self-discipline – I would like to start exercising and taking better care of my body. I am believing that my daughter-in-law is not going to have MS. I am believing that my mother is going to get better. I am believing for finances to help bring some of this ministry’s vision to reality. I’m believing for more people to be saved who I come in contact with. I’m believing for more of God in my life. I would think of these things, and hope one day for these things, but I am going to radically believe now! Boy, just saying this has stimulated even more faith in my heart.

Did you know if you believe you can’t be negative? Do you know any negative people? They are draining aren’t they. And they are probably dealing with health issues as well. So, make a choice today to radically believe. What else is there? I would rather believe for all and get half than believe for nothing and get nothing but heartache and pain. Because did you know that you won’t even be sad or hurt by people if you believe??? I like that!!

February 15- What do you avoid?

February 15, 2010

Boy, all the days are running together! I just looked and 4 days passed by without adding thoughts here. I hope you can keep up with me, it’s just that life is running faster than my fingers can type, I guess.

Okay on with today’s topic, which I call “What do you avoid?” Well, I can tell you what I avoid, the dentist! I have faced so many fears in my life thus far, driving across bridges, getting into an elevator, doing an MRI, climbing a ladder, crowds, etc., all the phobias that the Lord had me face when the “spirit of fear” no longer played havoc in my life. Because before I knew that I had a “spirit of fear” I was in torment. Interesting that the Bible says, “Perfect love casts out all fear AND TORMENT!” Because fear brings torment. So when I say, “What do you avoid?” I’m really asking, “what gives you torment?”

I think Dentists are barbaic. Why haven’t they come up with some laser thing or something like on Star Trek to take care of dental work without all those contraptions, and needles, and numbing and, and, and…

Well, as I was thinking today that I needed to make an appointment soon as I have some work that needs to be done, I asked the Lord, “Why am I so fearful of the dentist?” Then I rephrased it and asked, “Why am I so fearful of the dental procedure?” See, I’m not afraid of the dentist, but the procedure. So I had to see it that way. Then I dug deeper. And I heard myself say, “I am afraid of not having control.” Then I said, “control of what?” (Yes, I’m having a conversation with myself, but really it’s the Holy Spirit speaking to me.) The fact was, I feared not having control of my senses! Feelings of being trapped in the chair once they have all their gizmos in my mouth.

So now that I know the root of the fear, I took them to the Lord just now. I said, “Father, forgive me for having fear of not being in control of all my senses. I have to take care of this body you gave me and cannot let the enemy talk me out of it. Forgive me for not trusting you in this. And if something were to happen that needed emergency care, I would be well taken care of. I will not fear.”

Stay tuned…   I am making that dentist appointment today!

So whatever it is you are “tormented by” do what I did and identify the real root of that fear, confess it to God, then go do it, trusting God’s power, love, and sound mind to be with you.

February 12 – My Birthday

February 12, 2010

Hello friends. Sorry it’s been a few days since I shared but I took a few twists and turns and in that somewhere was my birthday. Had an amazing day and that’s what I want to write about. It was very clear that I received a wonderful gift from my Father – God – and has changed me – again. Isn’t that what we all want, to be continually changed? To be purged more and more of stuff that has caused us pain? And this was that kind of a birthday.

On Feb. 10th, my birthday, I woke up to the sound of the Lords words ringing in my ears. I was singing a song, not sure what it was, but it was an encouraging song, praising God and loving Him in it. I began thinking that 54 years ago the Lord put me on this planet, and as I was thinking about it, the million dollar question came up again – “why am I here?” It was a passing thought but apparently got God’s attention because this is what He showed me.

First he wanted me to know that He knew me and every single person that ever lived. As I imagined thousands of people standing around, old, young, men, women, children and babies, it was boggling how He could know every single one of them. He then told me that He was there when each eye was created, every heart was created. He put them on this planet, and knows each and every one of them by name. He reminded me that He was there when I was born. There were angels with me and caring for me from that time. Then he said with such directness in only a way God can, “I created you, you are mine. You were mine then and you are mine now.” That statement started a whole day of learning and discovering. First, I am His. And I have been His since the day I was born. He knew I was going to receive Him as Lord and Savior one day, and the Bible clearly says that He sends His ministering angels to those who are “heirs of salvation” to help usher us into His glorious light (Hebrews 1:14)

So with that, I began thinking that if I’ve been His all along, then what makes me think any of the things I have are mine? Who do I think that I am telling Him what to do, or others for that matter? We talk like this and think like this when we are on our mind! But if I’m not my own, then all I have is not mine either. As I thought more on that, I began experiencing more freedom in my heart and mind. I remember even laying in bed with my eyes closed and saw light! It was surrounding me, it was His glory! It was an amazing experience. Then He began showing me that if I lived like this every day I couldn’t be hurt or offended in any way because it’s not me or my things being attacked! It’s His.

My life has never been my own, and that is why I (we) struggle so much. We are trying to make things happen or keep things that we have. But it’s not up to us to make things happen, and the stuff we are trying to hold onto isn’t even ours, we are stewards of these things. I guarantee you that when we stop thinking everything is ours or is about us, we will find peace!

Then He said, “The devil’s job is to get you to think of yourself and your needs 24 hours a day – this is Pride. And His goal for us is to keep our mind on HIM 24 hours a day – which is humility.” Who is winning here? It’s our choice.

Being selfish, doing everything to be comfortable, needing to be needed, fear of rejection and abandoment, anger, frustration, worry, fear, etc., all comes from Satan’s plan and we are like this when we have ourselves on our mind. But remember, we are not our own!! We have been bought with a great price! Jesus died to purchase you. So truthfully, we are “doubly” His. First when we are born – we are His creation, and then when we accept Him as our Lord and Savior we become eternally His.

Throughout the day I was “feeling” freer and freer.  The more I realized that this house isn’t mine, my things are not mine, I’m not mine, it made me free inside! I’m no longer to “worry” if someone is going to break in. I’m no longer to worry if someone rejects me. I am free! And in that He showed me that since I am His, He is also my protector, my provider, my source for everything I need on this plant and no reason to worry or take thought of tomorrow! Whew!! That is truly awesome.

Yes, I live in a body, it’s made of dust and dirt and encases my “spirit” which is alive and well, so I do have to do things that I need to do to take care of this body, be responsible for what God has entrusted me with, but now I have a new view of life. If I get offended and hurt, it’s because I am “thinking” of me! If I get angry, it’s because I’m thinking of me. If I don’t get my own way, it’s because I’m thinking of me!!!!!!!!!

I don’t know about you, but I’m through with that kind of thinking. When Moses asked who should I tell them sent me? God said, “Tell them “I am that I am” sent you. Isn’t it interesting that we use that phrase so often? I am going to ride my bike. I am not going to do what she says. I am, I am, I am…  There are two worlds colliding here. I am – saying that I am the Lord’s and He lives within me so I will represent that “I am” on this planet.  Or… the “I am” from the kingdom of darkness which is all about me!

We can change today by readjusting our eyes on our Father, not on the things of this world. No wonder the scriptures says to “Pray without ceasing (1 Thessalonians 5:17)” and “Keep your eyes on things above, not on things on the earth” (Colossians 3:2). There is another passage (Matthew 6:19-20) that says: “Lay not up for yourself treasures on earth where moth and rust can corrupt nor where thieves break through and steal, but lay up for yourselves treasures in heaven where moth nor rust corrupt nor where thieves break through and steal, for where your treasure is, there is your heart also.”

Where is our heart? Is it on the Kingdom of God or on our own self-Kingdom? I had to repent for agreeing with the enemy and thinking of “me” all the time and began asking God to help me think of Him 24 hours a day. When I lose my life to Him, He will restore it back, and 100 fold too (Matthew 16:25). I’m already seeing fruit of that, and one thing I got immediately was peace! The struggle in my heart and soul ceased…

Okay, so you say, but what is the answer to that million dollar question? I actually answered it in a round about way already, but let me make it clear. We were created for Him (Colossians 1:16, Revelations 4:11) We were created for His pleasure. We were created to represent Him on this planet (2 Corinthians 5:20). We were created to Fellowship with Him (1 Corinthians 1:9). We were created to be adopted as His children (Romans 8:15). If I have myself on my mind all day, we can’t do any of these things. And I have to tell you in the strongest of words that when we do “Seek first His Kingdom and His righteousness (Matthew 6:33), not our own kingdom or our self-righteousness” you will find what you are looking for yourself – peace.  Where you will know that you are not alone, that you have not been abandoned, that He has your rear-guard and is preparing the way ahead, that He has all your needs taken care of, and you are loved just like you are. That folks is worth it’s weight in gold! No amount of money can buy this kind of peace and joy and happiness… ask a rich person, they’ll tell you so.

February 8 – Jesus is the Way

February 8, 2010

I was spending some time working on a teaching for my church, it’s called “Warrior’s Walk.” I started conducting the classes a couple of weeks ago, and they have been amazing. As I prepare for the class, the Lord opens up my understanding more, so as a teacher I can really help shed light on scriptures for better application.

And here is one I would like to share with you.

The Bible says, “I am the way the truth and the life, no one comes to the Father but by me.”

I want to focus on the first part of that scripture..  “I am the way, the truth and the life.” This passage is talking about Jesus, these were His words. So as I was pondering on that scripture the Lord showed me another way to read that passage that makes it personal and real in my life. Because I’m sure we’ve all heard that passage hundreds of times, so He gave it to me a fresh. He said, read it this way, “Jesus show me the way, with your truth, so that it gives life in _______________ (whatever you are going through!)” For example, “Jesus show me the way (we need to ask Him this), with your truth (not what everyone else is saying), so that it gives life (not worry or fear or doubt and unbelief – but faith and hope) in dealing with my neighbor.”  “Jesus show me the way, with your truth, so that it give life to me while looking for a job.” It applies to about anything we are going through!

I hope you incorporate this into your prayer life as well, I believe you will find the peace you need and answers you seek for every situation and issue in your life.

February 5 – Prayer

February 5, 2010

Something happened the past couple of days and today it all came very clearly to me, and it’s about prayer. I’ve prayed for years, and I’m sure you have too. Sometimes I get the answer I want, sometimes I don’t, sometimes I wasn’t sure God heard me, other times I didn’t believe what I was praying, the things we go through, you know…  But something happened a couple of days ago that changed my prayer life. I believe it started several months ago but came to a conclusion these past few days. And that is this: How awesome and truly privileged we are to be able to approach the throne room at any time and talk face to face with the Almighty God who made heaven and earth! This is truly fantastic, and I never saw it like that before. I “knew” I was talking with God all these years, I just hadn’t seen it in this light before.

So why did this all of a sudden become so real to me? As I was just writing this, I asked God that question and this is what he said. “Understanding and compassion helps you to pray.” See, when I first got saved, over 35 years ago, I had such a “gift” of compassion that I was weeping over everyone I would meet, it was so intense. Then one day I said, “Father, I can’t take this any more.” And He heard me, and took that gift away. I knew it happened because that intensity was gone. I was saddened about it, but was gifted in other things I could excel in. I still had compassion for people, otherwise I couldn’t teach like I do, but not a “gift” of compassion – a supernatural way to understand people and feel their hearts. Now 35 years later, God gave me back that gift, and I’ve already seen it at work. I remember having asked for it back some time ago, and I supposed this was the right time where He gave it back. Remember, everything is in His timing.

Sometimes we have prayed, like I have in the past, like we are talking to the next door neighbor. God is not the next door neighbor, He is God!  He is the one who gives to you what you want and need, He is continually pouring His love and blessings on you, but if we don’t understand who God really is, our prayers won’t be powerful or even effective. A scripture comes to mind: “We must believe that He is and a rewarder of them that diligently seek Him.” This scripture is now true in my life. I truly believe He is, and hears me, and will respond because I am diligently seeking Him.

The Bible says, we have not, because we ask not, and when we ask, we ask amiss. This could mean two different things. First, we aren’t asking, and when we ask, #1 – we ask for selfish gain or #2 – we don’t really know or understand the One we are asking. We need know God, really know Him so when we do talk with Him we know who we are talking to. This sounds elementary, but it’s really that simple.

My prayer life has changed. Now when I pray, I pray with understanding, compassion, determination and directness, truly believing God heard me and that what I prayed will get the needed and appropriate response. I trust God with whatever He sees fit. And another thing, I don’t have to spend hours praying for people, just the mention of their name is sufficient. Paul said that several times in his letters by saying, “Make mention of me in your prayers.” I used to pray to God how to help someone, what I thought He should do, etc. We’ve all done it. But the truth is, we are asking God to change a person or situation to make “us” more comfortable. This is praying for “selfish-gain.” So when I simply mention their name, I leave it up to God what it is they need and how they get it. I get through my prayers a lot quicker now leaving time to just talk with Him as Father and daughter. I now spend time listening. I’ll end my prayers now saying, “Father, now I want to listen.” And so I sit quietly, sometimes He says something, sometimes He doesn’t. Sitting quiet isn’t for Him, it’s for me.

So what I am wanting to articulate here is to encourage you to ask God for more compassion, more of a revelation of who He is, more understanding, and more of His love in your life. This is a prayer He will respond to!

February 3 – Pride – Yikes!

February 3, 2010

Well folks, for you that are spending time reading these blogs, I hope you are finding help and being strengthened in the Lord, I know I am. And this morning is no different. So let me just get to it, as it’s a hard thing to talk about, but I share it with you in hopes that you find your freedom as I did. So bare with me, it’s a bit lengthy.

This morning I began reading in Exodus, just finished Genesis as my goal this year is to read through the Old Testament. Anyway, I thought, “I wonder what Exodus is going to show me about what I’m going through in my life today?” So with that, I began reading. I read chapter one then chapter two, and bingo, there it was. It’s amazing how God speaks to us right where we are at! So here is the passage I want to refer to in Exodus 2:14. This is the story of Moses when he saw an Egyptian beating a Hebrew and slew the Egyptian. “And he (the Hebrew) said, Who made you a prince and a judge over us? Do you intend to kill me as you killed the Egyption? And Moses feared and said, “surely this thing is known.” When Pharoah heard the thing, he sought to slay Moses, but Moses ran out of Egypt.”

What we go through in relationships with people is what God uses to clean us up as well. And for me I have distanced myself from people so that they could not see what I see in me, that “junky” stuff. So when people would get to know me too well, I would change jobs or change churches, I would run, just like Moses.

This is what happened: I was on my way to a church meeting, and I began praying and asking God to cleanse and purify my heart, and to show me what is inside me so I can be pure and holy before Him. Then I began praying for people, especially those who have been a thorn to me. I asked for compassion and love, and I began praying for them so they wouldn’t be a thorn any longer. I was praying for healing and deliverance, all kinds of awesome things, when before I was just angry and disgusted with them. My heart was already changing, I was being set free AS I was praying for them. It was awesome!

Well, it wasn’t over yet! Because if you ask something like that, you will be sure to get it, and to the fullest, and I did, right between the eyes. I felt like I got hit by a 2×4, I wanted to run! When I had attended that meeting, a lady who knows of some of my plights was sharing a word, which was written just for me. It was tremendous, because the very things she was saying I had just asked God for!! As she spoke, a light went on in areas of my life that I hadn’t seen clearly before. It was hard, but it was good too.

As I drove home after the meeting, I realized that these things that were being exposed in me are sins… they aren’t me! I want them out! I want to be a clean vessel for God to use. The hard part was “admitting” these things so I could be purged. That hurts! The truth hurts! I went through all kinds of feelings as I was seeing these things inside me. I got hurt, then angry, then mad, then understanding came when the Lord reminded me that He loves me and wants to work with me to get me free. I humbled myself and just admitted these things. That was the hardest part you know, admitting we see what others see because the first thing we want to do is defend ourselves or run. But the truth is, we aren’t defending ourselves, we are giving those “sins” permission to stay! And if we run, we aren’t getting free! Ouch!

So I realized that I had positioned myself to be the judge, jury and executioner. I judged an individual, sentenced that individual, and was then also the executioner. When we don’t forgive completely, we are judging. When we want to see justice come to them, that is sentencing, and when we defame or talk about that person, we are the executioner. We may not even know we are doing it, but I realized it and it caused me to feel shame. That in itself hurt too. It’s all sin! Shame came when someone “saw” what I was doing!! Like in the passage I just referenced… Moses feared that someone saw what he did. See, if it was only me that saw the junk, it would have been easy to deal with, but when you think others see it, that’s when fear and shame comes that causes us to run.

So then I began to repent, because the root behind all these things is pride. Only a prideful person will put sentence on another person’s life. And here are some other sins I had to consider. (By the way, these are sins but they are also spirit manifestations, and once exposed, we have the authority to cast them out.) So here goes:  Hard time being happy for others, False humility, needing approval, unable to be corrected, fear of man, opinionated, my way or the highway, impatient, intolerant, unforgiving, unkind, selfish, self-righteous, angry, fearful, judgmental, critical, bitter, controlling, manipulative, justice needed, lying (lying is when we haven’t believed the whole truth about ourselves), exposure, wanting to run, unable to receive rebuke, “what about me?”, and the list goes on and on, but you get the picture.

It felt awful, it hurt, I wanted to leave the church, blah, blah, blah. Because “they found out!” Just like in the passage I referred to, “They found this thing out.” And because of that, I wanted to run. But no more! I am staying, and going to take my medicine!  I am going to face these things, admit when they are there, and get on with the program. Isn’t that what we all want? Why is it so hard to just take our medicine? Because those thoughts coming from those spirits are making us think that those feelings and pain are ours when they are theirs!  I know these feelings feel like ours, but they aren’t! That is why we can’t seem to get free, we made them ours. When we separate the sin from us, we can see a lot clearer because pride can’t get in the way of getting free. Because frankly pride is the culprit behind all these sins.

Remember, Pride is the original sin! Lucifer fell because of pride. He wanted to be like God. He thought in his heart that he didn’t like how God was doing things and that he could do better. That’s all we are saying as well when pride comes. That “they” aren’t doing it like I think they should be doing it. That is the easiest way to expose pride in our lives, and that’ what happened to me.

I had forgotten that these things weren’t me! It was the sin in me manifesting. Paul talks about it in Romans, “It’s not me but the sin in me that does it.” But we had given that sin access to our vessel!! That is our part. Once we see it, we can get rid of it. I forgot that I could get free. I could face the music, expose the enemy within, and get on with things. Believe me this took a long time, (this situation in my life was used as a catapult) because now when I look back on my relationships with certain people, I was very controlling and judgmental!

Thank you Father for loving me enough to help me see the truth! And thank you for putting people in my life that love me too, even though they may see what I see in me.

This was a very hard blog this morning, but truly freeing for me. I hope that what I shared helps someone to face some hard things, because sometimes that is the only way that freedom truly comes.

Follow up:  As I re-read what I just wrote, isn’t it interesting how I’m sharing these deep hidden things of my heart that I wanted no one to know about with the world now? I guess I’m well on my way of getting free from them. I say it this way because it’s a process. Once these things have been exposed, and repentance done, now the work begins to walk in victory over them! Stay tuned…