Archive for June, 2015

Keep Your Eye On The Prize

June 7, 2015

For several years we have been waiting for the house next to us to come up for sale. When it was first built, it was built so close to us that we had to put up a big fence. At that time, it was very hard and even had to repent for getting mad at God for allowing it. But with all that behind us, we ended up having a great neighbor. Why? Because they were never there. They only came up a couple of times of year as it was their vacation home. Tom and I knew there was a reason. First, we didn’t have noisy neighbors, and secondly, the home buyer was a Christian whom we became friends with. It was working out well. We did know though, that one day the house would be ours, as I recall a promise from the Lord that when the house was being built that it was being built for us.

So with that, I trusted God that one day we would get the house. So here we are 8 years later, the house is available again. But they want more than I believe the house is worth AND beyond our abilities to purchase it. So now what? Well, the first thing I did was get made and started blaming. I blamed Tom for not letting us buy it when we had the chance several years ago for 1/2 the price. I began blaming God because He said it would be ours.

See, I was keeping my eyes on the prize, the house, not on God. If God wants me to have it, He will make a way where there is no way. All things are possible with God. And timing is everything. This is what “long suffering” means. To wait in the midst of something that may take some time, patiently and in good faith.

What happened though as I began to doubt was that I started to shut down. When I got the news of the cost of the house, I shut down fast. We have started many awesome outreaches in this ministry, TV, Radio, Conferences, etc., and I just stood looking out the window and said, “I’m done.” What I realized is that when we don’t get that thing we are praying for, and it seems to be out of reach continually, it can cause us to fall into hopelessness. It causes us to give up, and stop caring about anything. I actually started to feel that way, and knowing the Word of God and truth about things, I knew that was not a godly response. I was not trusting God. I was looking at the prize as my prize, not on God who is my blessing giver.

My eyes were on the wrong prize. I was telling my husband how I was feeling and he said, “Why not look at what you do have?” I didn’t like that response, I wanted him to get mad and discouraged with me. And he made me even madder when he had this kind of response. I was deep in the depths of dispair and I was going down fast. So after talking things through about what was in my heart, I came to the conclusion that my eye was on the wrong prize. I repented, and within seconds all that negative thought left. I even began working on something else in the ministry, and just kept on going. If I would have stayed in that mind-set, I would have become oppressed, because the enemy wants to do nothing but kick us more when we are down. I had a moment of doubting God there, and the enemy came in like a flood.

Praise God I have learned a few things in my life, and one of those things is when my attitude takes a nose dive this quick, some repenting is due. Needless to say, I asked God to forgive me for doubting and blaming Him. I asked Tom to forgive me for accusing him and blaming him. And I was restored.

All this took place in a few hours time. If we don’t take care of these kinds of things when they happen, it can truly mess up our life, can’t it. Some of you are carrying around pain of things that never panned out the way you wanted. Well, stop now and repent to God for blaming Him. Forgive everyone who you thought sabotaged your life. Get clean today by forgiving yourself. It can happen that quick! Take the plunge…  today…  into the Word of God that says, “I will never leave you nor forsake you.”