My Birth… again…

On March 6, 1977 I found myself at a little Baptist church and accepted Jesus as my Lord and Savior. Now 40 years later that day is still as clear as though it happened yesterday. Here’s how that day went:

I had a friend who’s kids went to Sunday School on a church bus, but she herself didn’t go. But one day she decided to go and received Jesus as her Savior. Well, she kept asking me to go time after time and one day I finally went. I was wearing a mini-skirt, spiked heels, and was hung over! But there I was. I was shaking the whole time and wanted to run, but my legs wouldn’t move. When the call to come forward for salvation, my feet moved in that direction. That day started a journey for me that I never ever thought was possible. But it also caused me confusion. I had suffered with anxiety and panic attacks for many years (starting at 15 years old) prior to becoming a Christian, and was so excited to be rid of all that. But that wasn’t the case at all. I still suffered. I wondered why I wasn’t healed now that I was a Christian because the Bible says that “by His stripes I am (past tense) healed.” So then doubt began to flood my mind that God doesn’t love me because another passage says, “God’s love casts out fear and torment.” So there I was, in a perplexed time in my life. And for the next 18 years I battled anxiety and stress and panic attacks – as a believer.

I was agoraphobic, was trapped in my mind. I was unable to do the simplest things like ride a bicycle, eat food, take vitamins, go in an elevator, travel, exercise, etc. Then one day something happened… I found the piece I was missing that led to my complete healing from anxiety, stress, panic attacks and phobia. It was when I was finally able to RECEIVE God’s love. See, as long as I was in doubt, fear was present. As long as I thought God didn’t love me, fear was present and it’s fear that causes the manifestations of anxiety and stress.

Now on this 40th year of Salvation, I am truly living the life I was meant to live. I’m not perfected, further from the truth, but I am loved. Peace reigns in my heart and mind now. Because I know for a fact that God’s love is real and very present with me and when I mess up God’s love pours through His Son Jesus to me so I can be restored once again.

I want to share this with you so you too can grab ahold of this for yourself. Perhaps you know of someone suffering as I did?  My book re-release is called “A Matter of the Mind… journey from fear to faith” is now available. It’s been updated and revised and shares how the Lord met me and healed me. I do believe that what God does for one, He will do for another, even you! You can pick this book up on my website at or

But this month I truly celebrate life… and the love, joy, peace and patience that comes when we truly have believed and received God’s perfect love for us.


Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in: Logo

You are commenting using your account. Log Out /  Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out /  Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out /  Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out /  Change )

Connecting to %s

%d bloggers like this: